I have been in my head something fierce today. Countless times throughout the day I’ve had to pull myself out of my revelries, catching myself so lost in thought that I had to ask everyone to repeat what they just said. It was like I heard them, but I didn’t hear them. I can only hope that makes some kind of sense. Like I barely caught the end of what they said, catching just enough of it to respond, as if I was paying attention the whole time. I’ve tried to think of any reason I’ve been so deep in thought and the only thing I can find as a source is my college English class and the thesis paper, I’m gonna have to eventually write. I’ve been reading about how important the topic is and the fact that it makes a difference to the writer and if they feel strongly about whatever it is they are writing about.
Something that I’ve always felt strongly about is helping others. No matter what the need may be, if I can do it I will so long as it’s within reason, of course. I feel so strongly about it that I feel like an utter failure if for some reason I can’t help someone. I want to think I can help everyone because that’s what I really want to accomplish. But sometimes I just can’t, and I hate it. I can’t always help the people that need it most, and sometimes the ones that need it most, my kind of help isn’t what they’re needing or lacking. They need something that I can’t give them. And it’s literally so hard for me to accept that I’m not always gonna be able to help everyone.
It has moved in and now lives so deep within me, this passion of wanting to help others. Maybe the tragic things I’ve experienced and have personally been through can help someone else going through the same thing or something similar. Therefore, having the knowledge because of those things, I can relate better than most who haven’t been through the tragedy or losing someone as close as your siblings. Or the experience of what parents go through when losing a child.
Anyways, these are just a few of the things I have been pondering on for the last few days and felt I needed to write it down and get it out. My site isn’t doing as good as I initially thought it would. There are some days better than others.
Question: If anyone reads this and can tell me how I can make it to where ppl can add to the sites blog with their own experiences they’ve been through I’d really appreciate it. I know about sending an invite via email and choosing whether that person can post, edit and write their own posts. Assigning them as administrative or whatever those options are, I know about that way of doing it. I was just wondering if there was any other way to do it.