I’m so excited because I told my counselor Mrs. Lori that I was ready to get back in group and she agreed! OMG! You guys I’m so ready to be back around my people’s. Like I really don’t know exactly what to say because I’m literally that excited.
It won’t be this coming week because they have a training day where they stay late working over in order to train new comers in the field. I was momentarily pulled aside an worked with one on one because I’m a very open person an speak and can relate to almost everyone that shares. But I don’t know exactly when not to speak sometimes. I don’t want anyone feeling like I’m trying to take the spotlight or steal their thunder because thats totally the opposite of everything I’m attempting to do and accomplish.
So, natuarlly when I was made aware of it I felt bad because I would never try and take over someone’s talk time just to turn the spotlight on me. Just because I say I can relate to whoever is speaking at the time and I voice it, doesn’t mean I want everyone to pay attention to me. Never would I do something so disrespectful as that. The only reason I even ever say anything is because sometimes people sharing leave an opening welcoming someone else to speak up especially if they can relate.
I guess someone didn’t take too well with me doing that and so I was removed from the last group I was in. It was done very smoothly I must admit. In such a way where I wouldn’t take it wrong. Which I didn’t because I’m such an open minded person that I can take constructive criticism even if it’s not on my writing. So, I catered to them. and stayed in one-on-one’s with Mrs. Lori for the past 2 months almost. I got myself lined out and I have been passing all my drug tests for the past month and to me that a fucking wonderful thing. I told her yesterday she has a method to her madness just some people don’t know it until she succeed’s in what she’s trying to accomplish. Hell she said even she doesn’t know the methods behind her madness at all times until she had done it.
Which is how things go with me too. Sometimes I’ll set out to try and achieve a different outcome with something that may need a little changing in my life, and I won’t truly understand the methods to my madness until the outcome ends up exactly how I wanted it to end. Different.
So all’s well that ends well on another beautiful day with the sun shining so bright in the noon time sky. God Bless you all and have a blessed day.