I lierally just woke up with my nack hurting so bad. It was to the point that I xould barely move, and when I did there was wha felt like this explosion in between the discs in my lumbar (lower back), I;m a big cry baby so when I felt how bad it hurt to move I started crying. And this was not a ‘feelings hurt; kinda cry. This was like I was in ‘labor pain’ knda cry. I cried out to my husband but not by his name. I cried out ‘baby’. I did that only a few times and just stopped when I got no reply. I knew he was outside in the garage.
I forced myself to roll over to get in a position to where I could sit up but that was a bad move. Omg! So, I slowly grabbed my body pillow and scooted it under my lose back very gentley. Then not even 2 minutes after I had got semi comfortable,I hear footsteps clapping down the hallway and it’s in my bedroom. My daughter walked in and she seemed upset I saw it off top. I asked her what was wrong and she was crying but not that hard cry It was like a mild upset cry like a stress cry. Didn’t she proceeded to tell me that her and her best friend had gotten into a hot tub and when they were getting out her phone slipped and fell in between the base of the hot tub and I guess the deck against the tub. And she’s stressing because she has no way to get it out She said and she has no phone and she needs a phone because of my grandson I want to be able to get in contact with her or vice versa for us to be able to talk.I need that find a way to help her and I don’t know how. I opened up my accountand showed her how much I had that there was no way I could right now I and I hate it when I can’t help my kids man I hate it I fucking can’t stand it.
I asked her if Greg was inside yet, and she said yes. Then I started venting about how I was just crying out for help because my back is hurting and he was in ther the whole time? That aggrevated meeven more I think. It kinda made me feel like I was being ignored and it hurt my feelings.
She contibues stressing me about not having her phone. Well, not so much as her phone. It was because of all the pictures, and memoeries she lost and didn’t back up so even if/when she get another one she’s not gonna have those special pictures of Lukah when she gave birth to him and a lot of oher cherishable memories. I;m glad I saved every pic she sent me. I just realized I’ll be able to help her get a lot of them back. Being the ones she sent me all the time. Plus her video clips she’s extremely fond of, and had a lot of them too you guys. I raised my arm pionting in the direction of the living room where Greg was at taking a brak from beig outside. She amentally said no she wasn’t ask him because he’ll yell at her if she does. ((He’s just a grumoy ass od man, who frustrated over money period. Whether it’s just talking about it, someone asking to borrow some (my son or bubbba who lives right behind us) and hell even when I ask him for some. He’s just very, whats the word? Cautious. I don’t blame him for neing that was either. He’s lent out money to other people so many times and was never repaid that he now hesitates when asked this present point and time, He’s never turned our children our grandchildren away though. Ever!
This week alone he’sbeen out almost $600 alone. My son’s moped was messed up and wouldn’t start up. Greg not only paid for the parts that were needed to fix it, but also fixed it for him as well. Since Nick has moved out, Greg hasn’t had any problems helping him out when he needs it so long as he doesn’t move back in here. I know that sounds fucked up but they butt heads so much. Thry are both stubborn as hell, two peas in a pod. And when they argue, neither one will back down, they just continue to try and prove their point to one another. Then I have to be the middle man and yell at them both telling them to shut the hell up and stop being so petty. Eventually they do but then they both continue trying to get in that last word. It wasn’t only down right botrhersome but obviosly totally uncalled for and gave me a migraine every single time it happened. I’ve wrote and talked about it so much. I’m just grateful for the peace and quiet that I now have. Truly Blessed.
So, thats how my morning has been since waking up. Now I;m sitting here at my laptop attempting to finish this post. I say ‘Attempting’, because I got distracted doing one little thing, which then led me to a full blown cleaning mode like I’m nesting or fucking something.
My friend Sam just now video called me on messenger and of course I’m gonna answer. She’s texting someone right now though. But back to what I was telling you guys. (and yes I’m carrying on like two (2) conversations at once.
I’m back again. Sam showed up no sooner than I got off the phone with her. That was wierd asf. She used to work at the same place I do but went on maternity leave. We started talking and getting to know ome anotther just before she had to leave. Since she’s been gone we’ve remained in contact and usually talk on a daily basis.
She had her baby boy like maybe 2 months ago (he’s still jus so little). Whenever she comes over and brings her lil ones along I just love it. I’ve gotten attached to her lil boys, especially her newborn. I think I love him almost as much as my own grandson. Or maybe it’s just the newborn baby thing. I really don’t know. But what I do know, is that I love holding him and loving on him, and making him smile and giggle.
Oh man when I have my grandson I just can’t get enough sugars from that little man right there. I want him to call me “Gigi” but I’ve been telling everybody whatever he calls me is what I’ll be so I’m prepared to be “gaga” or something, I don’t know.
Well my day thus far has been a little busy. I’ve been trying to just say wtf fuck I was going to say and close this post, but distractions hapen. I’m pretty sure there’ll be one or two more before the days over with.
My husband came in here and asked me if I wanted a chicken pot pie (KFC) if they had one, and of course I said yeah. Then I smiled and told him if they didn’t then he could wait the 7 minutes whiole they cooked one fresh. You’d of thought the fucking world was gonna end by the way his reaction came off, when I asked (told him) that. Lol! I guess he’s thought I was getting smart because he’s said “why come off with attitude”? And then I was like, “I’m not having an attitude, I’m just saying if they don’t have one I’d like you to wait the seven minutes it takes to cook one. That’s not bad. You got air conditioner in your truck.”
I shit you not he rolls his eyes before he turns and walks away to leave. I swear he can be something else at times. We’ve been together since I was 28-years old. I’ve now hit the 40- year old mark. I think by me hitting that mark, is what started his mid-life grouchiness. Remember we’re 20-years apart in age. He was set in his ways before I even met him. Large and in charge.
Until me. . .
I guess I’m gonna bring this to a close. I’ve got other lil projects in my head I want to attempt while they’re still on my mind.
That chicken-pot-pie was delicious. . .