Man Jennifer the things I need to tell you about. All the wonderful things. For the past 3 days I’ve had my grandson, Lukah. Cedes let me bring him home when we came back to Paducah. It was hard asf for her to let him leave her sight though. I was proud of her staying stroong though and trusting in me with her baby. The past 2 nights I have lost lots of sleep and I’ve been cranky with Greg like you wouldn’t believe but it’s also been the most blissful times I’ve had in I don’t know how long.
Chas came through last night and stayed over to help with him while I go to work this morning, thank goodness. But to describe the feeling I had while holding him in my arms rocking him to sleep while I slowly and quietly hummed a tune to a song I’ve never heard, felt amazingly unbelievable. Unbelievable because I just turned 40 this past Thursday and I am beginning to realize how old I’ve gotten and how quickly it came upon me. In my arms my grandson was snoring his lil booty off. No bottle or pacifier, jus the sound of his grandma’s voice and the rocking back and forth motion had him copmletely knocked so that when I laid him down not only did he not make a fuss, but he didn’t so much as even move until just a lil bit ago when I was woke up to get ready for work.
Dad was such a hardcore bible thumper preaching the return of Jesus that I always thought I’d never make it to be this old. Hell, to even be a grandma is way out there to me. As a little girl always hearing my dad preach about the end times I just figured I’d never have a life or experience anything because everyone would be in Heaven. If I’d of known what I know now I. . . No. I would still have came out the same person I am today. Yes, I believe in Jesus and that he died for our sins on the cross. Just because what my dad always preached hasn’t happened yet doesn’t mean it never will. The Bible says one day it will so I know that it’s true.
Just wanted to tell you that. Gotta get ready an go to work Jennifer. I love and miss you so very much. If you were still here it’d be you helping me with Lukah instead of my best friend. You’d fall in love at first sight. He’s a fat chunky lil baby boy with big blue eyes. I’m so blessed and forever grateful.