What am I feeling this morning as I stir awake in my bed all alone on this Wednesday morning? I don’t really know jus yet. I read a news article on how there’s this ‘Cyclops-Like Hole’ in the Sun that’s gonna cause a Geomagnetic Storm knocking out satelites, some radio’s and some other minor things. It said that most people wouldn’t even notice this unusual documented occurance. I haven’t been able to update my satellite guide in a couple of days now and I’m sitting here wondering if this ‘thing’ is the reason? Could be, might be, but not all the way for sure.
I’m usually in my bedroom all day alone, by myself while my husband is chillin on the couch. I love that he lets me do my thing when I’m busy interacting with others who need someone to talk. But I still miss him sleeping next to me. He’s 20 years my senoir and tells me that our bed hurts him too much for him to be able to sleep on it like he does the couch.
Oh, well at least he gives me my privacy when I’m talking with my clients.
Doesn’t change the fact that I miss sleeping with my husband though. So, just the other day I was watching Kevin Heart stand-up and I was literally laughing my ass off at this hilarious man so loud it caught my husbands attention making him come to see what the hell was so funny. Once he opened my bedroom door I opened my arms widefor him to crawl into them. He did without any hesitation whatsoever. As soon as his head laid on my chest I began playing with his hair and rubbing his head, and all over his back.
You guys he fell asleep for a short minute in my arms. I realized just how much I actually missed him laying beside me at night when I smelled him. It was a mixture of his Old Spice deoderant and his Axe body spray with a hint of sweat. It was so comforting and made me wanna snuggle even closer to him than I could even get. I was practically draped over him. I asked him if he’d rub my neck and back for a minute, that I’d lay on my belly. He actually said yeah, and I was shocked as shit you guys. He’s not rubbed any part of me in forever. Reason being because I’d rub his back or legs all the time but when I asked for the same he’d do it just not as long or anywhere as good as I did when I rubbed him (his hands hurt). So his reason for no longer rubbing me was he thought if I did him then he was obligated to return the favor. Umm, yeah when I really need it. But if I’m jus rubbing on him because I wanna, I don’t expect the return. (Even if my carpel tunnel is flared up) I’m doin it because I wanna not because he asked or that I even have to.
Because I love him unconditionally.
This man has been the absolute best thing (beside my kids) that has ever came into my life and loved me back. My level of respect for him goes beyond what I have for anyone else. He was the only one that stood up for me and stayed by my side. A man that doesn’t read so good and hardly knows how to spell, made sure I had a letter everyday. I had at least 3-4 letters a week from him. No one wrote me as often or as much as he did. I’ll forever be gratefully blessed because this man, my husband, saved me from a life of drug abuse, physical abuse, and from the most dangerous person of all. Me!
Truly Blessed. Forever Grateful.