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I jus’ finished with a new group today and I loved every min of it. There were people in this particular group that I could relate to wholeheartedly. While I can’t speak of specifics due to confidentiality, I can tell you it’s a group of addicts. We are all one in some form or another. What? You don’t think you are? I guarantee there are way more addicts in the world than some may actually think. Jus’ because your not addicted to any specific drug doesn’t make you ‘not’ an addict. There are numerous things which people can be addicted to. Sex, pornography, drugs, alcohol, money, gambling, hustling, hoarding, food, jus’ about anything that you can’t see yourself ‘not’ doin’ or to be without ((no, I’m not talkin about the things you have to have in life in order to survive)) is an addiction.

What?

Don’t like hearing the truth speak to you from this post I wrote? Coming from the mind of an actual drug addict?

In my honest opinion, I think if you didn’t read this post and hear an actual addict tell you. If you knew someone was a drug addict, and you weren’t? I’ll bet you’d not ask their advice or for their help with shit you got going on yourself. They might be an addict but you probably don’t even know.

My mother has never been a drug addict her entire life, but she’s addicted to watching her soaps ((soap operas for the one’s not knowing what I meant)). I don’t think an entire afternoon has gone by without her watching “Days Of Our Lives”. That may seem a lil funny and it probably is. I know I hated being made to go take a nap everyday when her show came on. It was so she could watch it without me causing her a distraction. If she missed anything from one of her soaps you sure as shit didn’t wanna be the one that caused it. I’m jus glad I learned early on not to bother her during her only peaceful time to herself throughout the day. Oh, no worries I was little and caused plenty of distractions, but she never really got on to me, got on to me, if I got up to get a drink, or use the bathroom. Of course those were the distractions she didn’t want me making but it was only because I wanted to see what was so important to her that I had to go to sleep so that she could watch. But still it goes without saying she was addicted to watching her TV shows everyday throughout the week.

It wasn’t a drug but that doesn’t mean she wasn’t addicted to following her favorite series.

((Above and before any other things I’m gonna list that I’m addicted to is being the proud mother of 2 grown ass kids. With the newest addition to our family, my grandson. Lukah Neal Spees. My husband, and kids, and now my grandson are what I’m addicted to before anything else. I’ll never put anything before them.))

((There are other things out there I’m even more addicted to than any fuckin drug. Example #1: I’m addicted to reading. I love reading. If there were no books in the world I’d wanna try to write the very first one. To show other people how far a person’s imagination can go. ‘No limits’ when it comes to pen and paper man. Free canvas. Ya know? Example #2: I absolutely love to write. Coincidence? That it goes with being able to read? I think so.

Needless to say I was pleased with the new group. There were a lot of people that I could relate to. I heard someone ask if a person had to have that ‘want to attitude’ in order to quit. But some people don’t and sadly never will.

I have a lot more things I need to write about. I just want everone to know I’m gonna be here if anyone needs to talk. I usually work from 6am-1 or 2pm and it’s only like a 5-7 min drive home from my job. I’ll be updating my contact information soon. I say my prayers every night. So please know that just because we don’t know one another, doen’t mean I haven’t prayed for you.

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BooBoo

I have always loved expressing myself through words & I have been a bookworm since I first started reading. So expressing myself through writing has forever been super easy for me. Now, if I could just teach people who can't read & write, HOW to do 2 of the best things to know how to in the world are? They'd be able to read all the beautiful, funny, scary, paranormal, romance, just all the wonderful & fascinating literature out there. I'd go crazy if I couldn't curl up with a good book especially on a rainy day. I work out in public, participating in being a functioning & contributing member of society. While at work I was outside smoking a cig & typing away on my Chromebook, when a very polite gentleman asked me how long it took to charge it. Not long I said, at least to be a dinosaur.He told me he knew about the older model I was using. I told him I was using to try my hand at writing a book. He ended up being a bookworm himself. Wishing me nothing but encouragement & success to finish. I like to tell myself I can do anything. But we all know how some people should just stick to their day job. But I'm gonna keep going & I'm gonna keep writing. I won't stop until I know without a doubt that I absolutely cannot succeed. Then. . . Maybe I'll put my pencil down, or in my case now, close my chromebook for good. Something tells me I won't have to just yet though. ((UPDATE: OMG! I've finally connected all my accounts and plugins that I know I've got. Still learning new things tinkering with my website everyday. I'm in the process of learning about my Meta Pixel & how to set it up & send test traffic onto viewing the results provided for my knowledge on how good everything is going about putting my message out there that all I wanna do is help people that really need someone to talk to. I'd never discuss any privileged information. I too am all about my privacy. Still working on some kinks as far as myself goes. Trying to become more self disciplined than what I haven't been like lately. LOL! I do KNOW that my God is Awesome & is always there when I need to be dependent the most. I ask that everyone keep me in your prayers (if you pray) if you don't then please keep me in your positive thoughts in your mind. I need all the positivity and Good Vibes & Karma that I can get sent my way. I only ever wanna better myself by learning & gaining more insight & knowledge in everything I wanna learn how to do with all I'm learning now. I really never thought I was as intelligent as I actually am. NO! I swear I'm not bragging, like with snobbish pride, but pride all the same. Except pride because not only have I learned new things, I've retained the knowledge of everything I've learned how to do! That's whats awesome.))
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