Time is a very interesting subject. To me anyways.
For example : It doesn’t seem to me that my grandson should be already be a month old. But he is.
She had plans on moving in with her boyfriend after she had Lukah, but she never told me. Not even a clue. When I asked her why, her response pissed me the hell off.
She said to me that she didn’t wanna tell me because she didn’t wanna make me mad. WTF? Why would I get mad that my daughter is now not only a legal adult, a new mom herself, and for wanting to start her life with the guy she’s current;y dating and has moved in with? I asked her that also. Her reply blew my mind you guys. She told me that everyone else she’s told about it has always said something negetive about the choices she made. I told her straight up, “FUCK THEM!” Haters are always gonna hate. Especially when they see someone doing better than they are they don’t particularly care for. It still pisses me off that ppl actually straight out told her not to go on and live her life with her son, step-son, and damn good boyfriend. He’s already given her a car so she can start practising driving. She knows how, but she has severe anxiety when she’s driving when other cars are coming towards her in the opposite lane, and driving on the interstate. They live on a small farm and he’s got some farm animals like horses, cows and maybe hickens. Not sure about the chickens.
I asked her if she was gonna go by my house so that Greg got to spend a lil time with Lukah before they left. At first she said no. They were just gonna dip out. Then I told her how bad his feelings woud be hurt if she up and did that to him when he was usually the only one to ever take her to all those baby doctor appointments she had to go to every month. Then the closer to the end of her trimester she reached the more frequent the appointments became. She would have broke his heart in such a bad way, that I don’t think they’d ever have the closeness they now have with one another. Since her father has been out actin a damn fool, her and my husband have became very close. She introduces him as her step-dad now as to where before it was just ‘Greg”.
It went all through me. Any parent out there whose child was finally grown and has basically raised themselves because either one or the other parent was absent (that one being me when I was locked up). However, her father was also MIA. He traveled from state to state building hotels. Staying gone for weeks and probably months at a time. I remember my first trip to Louisville, Ky. to go pick my daughter up from one of the hotels/motels he had a little more work to do on, and another one he was building in the city. It was also the same day I got to see my son walk across the stage and graduate. I’m so blessed to of gotten released from prison when I did. Otherwise I’d never of had the opportunity to witness that for myself. Being able to say ‘I was there’.
She moved in with my husband and I, and they quickly butted heads. She’d been used to doing her own thing basically the entire time he had her. From 5yrs old until she moved in with me December 2021. She’s been a daddy’s girl all her life. That will never change, even though he has. Not for the better either. You guys please keep B in your prayers. He needs all he an get of them even if he thinks he doesn’t. He’s the father of my child, I’ll always care for his well being. What worries me te most about him is his mental health.
I’ll save that for another story time. Woke up because I can’t seem to sleep tonight. Insomnia is knocking on my door hard asf tonight. Time to put this piece to rest and get it posted. Good night you guys. Or good morning to others.