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My ‘Secret’ Desire…

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This is me, No Filter.
Many Emotions

Can you see me? That is what I’m asking. Are you too busy with so much mundane tasking?
I yell for you to look.
I’m screaming inside my chest for you to notice me.
How can you not simply see, what it is I want you and me to be?
When we first met I thought you were cute. You even flirted back. Not one to stay mute.
Day, weeks, and months have gone by. You caught me falling before I got too high.
People talk and whisper behind our backs. Wondering if we’ve committed the unspoken sin.
I get butterflies when I know I’m going to see you. Being with you for a few hours a day sometimes isn’t enough for me.
I want to be greedy and keep you for myself.
Fuck em’ and let them watch.
Maybe inside they are really jealous of the friendship we have started. If they weren’t two faced then maybe they’d really know. Exactly what it is we are trying to show.
I have these awesome feelings I haven’t had in years. If you only knew how close I was to shedding fucking tears.
We aren’t in love or anything like that. Don’t get me confused. It’s lust not love.
The sensual feelings you stir up from the pit of my stomach down to my sweet spot you have yet to sample. My nipples becoming hard, perky and ample. Ready for your touch or your mouth either one.
I’ll let you have all of me except my heart. I can’t get my feelings involved. Could you imagine the shit that would cause?
When we look each other in the eyes…it’s us we see. Not our insides. They hate because they don’t know. They hate because it’s not them. Chill out and kick back. If they chose to act grown then let’s watch them perform. How you’d love to bet they don’t stand by shit they say or do.
I hear them chatter when your away. Things they say are to our dismay. I’m married but secretly like you. Your partner is a complete and utterly senseless bitch. She holds you to no regard and is disrespectful when it comes to you.
Your not happy and admit so unwittingly.
Could I really blame you? (With a partner like that?)
Hell no!
Why would I even try? It would only hurt my heart and make me cry. I’ve shed enough tears to last one a life time.
Trust me when I say the bitterness is more sour than a lime.
We both deserve more than the lives we are living are offering either of us. I don’t mean to sound so insincere. It’s been heavy on my mind. The things I hold for you inside my head. I’ll never speak them aloud. They are just for me right now.
Maybe it’s for the best. That way shit doesn’t get complicated.
Am I only living inside my head to entertain my thoughts?

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BooBoo

I have always loved expressing myself through words & I have been a bookworm since I first started reading. So expressing myself through writing has forever been super easy for me. Now, if I could just teach people who can't read & write, HOW to do 2 of the best things to know how to in the world are? They'd be able to read all the beautiful, funny, scary, paranormal, romance, just all the wonderful & fascinating literature out there. I'd go crazy if I couldn't curl up with a good book especially on a rainy day. I work out in public, participating in being a functioning & contributing member of society. While at work I was outside smoking a cig & typing away on my Chromebook, when a very polite gentleman asked me how long it took to charge it. Not long I said, at least to be a dinosaur.He told me he knew about the older model I was using. I told him I was using to try my hand at writing a book. He ended up being a bookworm himself. Wishing me nothing but encouragement & success to finish. I like to tell myself I can do anything. But we all know how some people should just stick to their day job. But I'm gonna keep going & I'm gonna keep writing. I won't stop until I know without a doubt that I absolutely cannot succeed. Then. . . Maybe I'll put my pencil down, or in my case now, close my chromebook for good. Something tells me I won't have to just yet though. ((UPDATE: OMG! I've finally connected all my accounts and plugins that I know I've got. Still learning new things tinkering with my website everyday. I'm in the process of learning about my Meta Pixel & how to set it up & send test traffic onto viewing the results provided for my knowledge on how good everything is going about putting my message out there that all I wanna do is help people that really need someone to talk to. I'd never discuss any privileged information. I too am all about my privacy. Still working on some kinks as far as myself goes. Trying to become more self disciplined than what I haven't been like lately. LOL! I do KNOW that my God is Awesome & is always there when I need to be dependent the most. I ask that everyone keep me in your prayers (if you pray) if you don't then please keep me in your positive thoughts in your mind. I need all the positivity and Good Vibes & Karma that I can get sent my way. I only ever wanna better myself by learning & gaining more insight & knowledge in everything I wanna learn how to do with all I'm learning now. I really never thought I was as intelligent as I actually am. NO! I swear I'm not bragging, like with snobbish pride, but pride all the same. Except pride because not only have I learned new things, I've retained the knowledge of everything I've learned how to do! That's whats awesome.))
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