MMM! I have thought this through and through. and I’m pretty sure GG is what I want to be called. I just got off the phone with her because I asked her if I could be in the room with her when she gets her ultra-sound. She said if it’s the irregular kind then “No”. It would make her uncomfortable. I guess I was so happy I was having a baby by the man of my dreams I didn’t think about being made to feel awkward during my ultra-sound with her. I’m not gonna lie. We all know that I’m a big cry baby. So naturally when I was told this I started crying. Of course I want to be in the room with her. I don’t think a mother should be alone at such a most precious time in her life. On the other hand that’s just my opinion. Everyone feels differently, and there are many single mothers out there doing the damn thing without anyone’s help let alone the father’s. I have no clue how her relationship is with the father of the baby. I do know they have their hands full at the moment and need as much support and uplifting prayer as possible. You can never have too much of that.
So I was messaging her dad just last night, and I guess he’s picked “Pappy”, as his grandpa name. I laughed when he told me. Oh my…it’s real you guys. I’m fixing to be a grandmother. WOW! I was always thinking my son would have made me one first. This is my reality instead. I’m actually getting happier the more days that go by. I think I may just be more excited about it at certain times than she is herself. I started writing in this little notebook, and I’m going to give it to her after she has her baby. It’s for the both of them to have and to keep. That way they’ll always have something to remind them of me after I’m gone. No, I’m not trying to get all sad and mushy. I just really thought it was something cute and nice to do. Actually I was imagining teaching my future grandbaby how to read and write. I know that’s what school is for, but it’s also something that’s a deep passion for me. I would like to be there for my grandkids and try and be a better grandma than I was a mother. Now if that don’t hit a little bit deep I don’t know what would. And with that I’m closing for the night. I hope for you all to have sweet dreams and a peaceful nights sleep.